I woke up this morning feeling heavy and depressed. The weight of what feels like stagnancy and a long wait in the corridor of breakthrough fell on me this morning, and though this might not feel like a good time to share a blog post. This is a perfect time for me to show up.
I am one person who has experienced and enjoyed the goodness
of God without measure. I have won so many battles that I didn’t even have to
fight. I have experienced open doors without lifting a finger. I am one person
that you would look at and feel that she doesn’t even have a care in the world.
But honestly, my heart feels heavy a handful of times—a child of God who has
mastered the act of being joyful in little and thankful in much.
Honestly, though, those who would say that I have no care in
the world are not totally wrong. It’s just that, that is not the whole story.
The devil still visits now and then, and this morning is one of such times that
he decided to show up. Unfortunately for him, I have been trusting God on what
to share next on the blog, so he has given me what to write on.
Isaiah 49:16 tells me that I am inscribed on the palm of
God’s hands, and my walls are continually before Him. In verse 15, He says He
will not forget me. But still, under His watchful eyes, the devil will show up to
trouble the waters of my peace. If God permitted him, it’s because it’s a
valuable event in God's plan for my life.
Psalms 23:4 tells us that even when we walk through the
valley of the shadow of death, we will fear no evil because the rod and staff
of God comforts us. So, we will find ourselves in places, situations, and
challenges that will look like the valley of the shadow of death. But in the
midst of that, God is there to comfort us and hold us through it.
True to the scripture above, let me continue with my
experience this morning that lasted for a couple of hours. While I was praying,
crying, and pouring my heart out to God, I picked up my phone (I am almost
saying I am addicted to that tool), opened YouTube, and the first thing that
stared me in the face is a YouTube Short of a lady that though I am not
following, I stumble on her YouTube Shorts at least 5-6 times a day. And her
words always hit me like God was using her to speak to me.
So, this morning I saw her Shorts again. For the whole
minute and more of what she said, it was as though she could see through me,
know exactly what I was going through, and was telling me to snap out of it.
Her words were direct and precise for me. You probably would think that will
make me jump out of bed in confidence. But it didn’t. I lay on that bed, cried
some more, felt her words soak into my spirit, and I worshipped God.
That was when I realised God had answered my prayers and
given me a word to share on the blog today. The next thing I did after that was
to get out of bed, take my bath, put on my EarPods, and I began my proper
morning worship. I had an agreement with God that August would be my month of
dancing. I would spend between 30minutes to an hour of my morning in worship.
In the place of worship, strategies began to drop in my
spirit. Ideas of growth began to well up inside of me. I began to develop a
blueprint of what to do next. The purpose of the wait and the things to do in
the waiting room corridor were beginning to get clearer. God was speaking while
I was worshipping.
I feel a lot better now, and I have no one but God to thank
for that. I have not sought counsel from anyone up to this moment. I have not
shared my experience with anyone. I am sharing it first on this blog post, but
I feel great again. As always, God came through. Indeed, His rod and staff
comforted me. He gave me the right word at the exact right moment. That lady
created that YouTube Shorts for me for today.
God knew today would happen even before it happened. He had
given His word through His servant ahead of time, and because he orders my
steps, He pointed me to the place to receive what He had prepared for me ahead
of time. He is truly my very present help in time of trouble.
No matter the challenge I experience, and even in very good
times, my default mode is gratitude. Praise and worship for me have become a
weapon. I am genuinely grateful for those worship ministers that God has placed
on the earth. I own their songs in my spirit, and when I don’t have any prayer
to speak out, their songs become my prayer. Their lyrics become a heavenly
voice in my spirit—the assurance of God’s goodness and grace in my life.
And believe me, those lyrics have fetched me countless
victories. They have pulled down many Jericho walls in my life and broken
countless chains. Worship is more than singing and dancing; it is for me the
acknowledgement of God in my space—the evidence of His goodness, the display of
His splendor, and the truth of His power. And again, this morning worship did
not do less for me. It revived my confidence in God.
Depression is real. The devil throws it at us now and then,
like a thunderbolt. For some, it sinks in deep, and they never recover. The
interesting thing is that sometimes you don’t even see it coming. A little
overthinking of an issue, and depression slips into your spirit. For days
unknown, you need to ensure that you remain in the hollow of God’s hands.
The presence of God in your life and the abundance of the
Holy Spirit in your life are not just for fun; it’s for a time and season when
the devil comes knocking. This knocking does not come preannounced. But when
God is the strength of your life, you can be sure that the door of your life
will not be opened to satan.
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